Hi guys! It was like the last day of 2011 yesterday so happy 2012 alright!!

Met jas & Cheryl @tam & we around t1 & tm before heading to meet Stephanie & Shermin and trained to bugis. Finally bought my schoolbag next year from bugis street! Ah damn happy. Trained to circle line to promenade mrt & walked to Singapore flyer sky deck bridge for @fleaforsake. Halfway water pipe broke & had a mini flood hah! we walked around marina square before training back to simei for lunch+dinner then tuition before heading to my grandma house for second round hah! Going to countdown later! (pardon my bad photo quality was using phone!)




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Anyways I'm back to update about life. Firstly I'm so sorry to ignore those adverts requests I'm sorry to turn it down. I mean it's like me kissing goodbye to the money but blogger's been a total bitch to me these days. I can't even get my archives settled. Damn. & secondly, I'll not reply any formspring questions until next year. Alright i admit i don't know how answer Ok, I'm actually thinking about closing it down, cause I don't like people who ask questions without their names. Thirdly, I really think my hairs's so fucking ugly damn I don't even wanna talk about it, it's like damn, it's ... Forget it. I don't wanna be like bitch complaining here so I'm here to update. Here goes sweeties (:

(I've got no photos causez we've got this really shy girl jaz here (:)

So today I headed to meet Jaslyn & Cheryl at whitesands to catch up with them a little! Lunch & then mailed my letter to pay. I've bought this really cheap & nice stuffz from this blogshop! I can't wait for it to be sent to my house. Ok, back to the point. Hmm, monopoly deal & then started to chat about making money.

Formula 1: give out flyers. (get a whole lot of your friends to walk here & there and take the flyers from you and soon you're done! Don't forget to ask them bring some disguises in case your boss are around somewhere spying (; hah! )

Formula 2: jaz & I wanted to do a blogshop together! So do look out for any updates! (;

Formula 3: do adverts like what I'm doing now. It's really nice to know that there are such nice bloggers around to pay for those adverts although it's kinda declining now all thanks to me ):

I'm running really low on cash & I have to get a few more new clothes in my wardrobe! Damn!

ANYONE PLEASE I NEED HELP ON MY BLOG.


Can't stop laughing at these damn. I found my new best friend! Hi bff im always so looking forward to your replies damn you're fucking funny. Hehe hi huns I've never yet to laugh so much yet till I read this.....



Hi Huns, see this girl say I old causez her birthday is on 30dec. Hahaha gonna wish her all the luck I have to her on her birthday. That's my p1 friend <3


(really, this is not a wordy blog. proberly just this post to express how I feel.)

Hi huns, been getting really emotional these days, I mean. I've been thinking about those people who judge out there & me growing old. x

Great, this might sound really old to you guys but just stay with it awhile alright. (skip this if you want!)

Why is it
So easy to gain weight but hard to lose weight?
So easy to piss someone off but hard to please someone
So easy to make enemies but hard to make friends
So easy to have fake friends but hard to have true friends
So easy to spend money hard to save money
So easy to be forgotten but hard to be remembered
So easy to be sad but hard to be happy
So easy to look ugly but difficult to look beautiful.

I'm sure many of you have seen this everywhere. I'm sure every single one of you have been judged at before. I guess we just have to live with it. Hell, I know it's hard. I've been through everything. I've been crying every single day after school at home because of those handful of people in my life. I know there are more people far worse out there. I just want to say, there's no point keeping quiet & keeping things to yourself. Let it out. Let those fucking tears out & show it to those haters.

I mean, seriously? People judge because personally they are not confident of themselves so they pick their target and aims at them until they die'. All that crap about only pretty people have good luck wherever they go? Hell that's fucking true, no joke.

Everyone says about having inner beauty is enough & whatever, do you think you are living in that type of society right now? Unfortunately not. I'm insecure most of the time because some people around me judge me. I try being myself but that's not enough. Nothing is enough. Ever. I've been judged from head to toe, how's that. I've heard of stories worser & feel really bad for them. If I don't care, who will? If you have a pretty face, everyone loves you wherever you go. You're like a VIP. You don't have to think or care about how you look because you already know 'i look that good'. Guys go for pretty ones ONLY. Unfortunately for me, I fall under the category' fat & ugly' yes, the worst of the worst.

You might think I'm stupid enough to choose the last express class when I can choose the first & many people who don't even have that chance. That's because I'm afraid if I ever even catch up with others in the first class. Ya, you can say my level & class position quite high but I'm still self conscious of myself. I mean, I know my limits. I'm not that good. Many others are so much better. I'm glad I got into the last express class, not any others $ im happy to be in there. Not yet, but soon.

Can you believe im like already 14, going to be 15 next year. And I'm already thinking about being old. Yes, I'm a fucking overly worried old hag to be. But I just cannot imagine how I will be like maybe 30 years down the road. What am I working as? Or would I even get a fucking job already? I can't bear to be old yknow. Everyone does. I hate adapting to a whole new environment. Like how from pri 6 to sec 1? I was fucking scared. No joke. I remember when I was five, I'm like going 'I wanna grow up!' & now the exact opposite. K, stop reading if you find me naggy & bitching about nothing around here alright.

Something I learnt about life: Nobody's worth your tears. You just pick yourself up & continue because nobody's gonna fucking wait with you!

I just stop awhile & I realised, life isn't about just studying its about having fun with your family & friends. After certain situations, I finally realised some true friends of mine, and those who are not. Although I know there is no such thing as forever & always. I won't be like many saying 'no ripping from this blog' or like 'don't Judge'. Because who cares? I don't mind anyone repost or anything but just don't announce my name. (for some reasons)

Anyways I'm glad to have those true friends in my life. & to those fake ones, I do hope you can make me one of yours too! (;

xo.

(I found the picture from tumblr below & screenshot it.)




Hi all! Headed yesterday to Ikea for lunch (love the chicken wings!) & headed to cousin's house to build the dining chairs we bought from there, spent like at least 3 hours fixing & managed to finish all the chairs. I'm totally drained when I was back home! xx

I guess I won't be uploading the pix for Thailand onto fb!


Hi huns, celebrated Christmas at my cousin's house. That's right, with yukki. So, I had dinner (bbq & steamboat) it felt like cny gathering heh! So, we watched a movie, talked, gossiped & took lots of photos tgt with cousins. During 'exchange gift time' wanqing went out to town but left her present, so sweet. I really liked my presents from them & my Christmas cookies! Had a bit of alcohol hehe.
I really appreciated those who bothered to tweet & msg me, wishing me merry Christmas & all. Luv you guys <3
Had a great night, right now im in sleeping mode so bye!!



I'll let the photos do the talking!